Its one of like going to sleep one night and everything being nice, and almost just the way you like it, and then you wake up and you have to look at every aspect of your life and think;

“How is this condition going to effect my life as it is, how do I change and adapt easily and then how do I live life with potentially so many changes its untrue?”

This is the thought that ran through my head immediately after being told I was Diabetic. I’m Type 2, Diabetes mellitus type 2, which means I can control it with diet and, in my case, a drug called Metformin.

So now I’ve been advised to lay off the sugar, and fat. That means no more chocolate, pastry goods, any greasy foods, eat plenty of veg, eat only certain fruits at certain times in the right amounts (natural sugar can also effect me)

Diet is easy. It’s basically “Change what you eat, or you will die”. It’s that simple really. The Metformin is giving me the hardest time though. Messing my gastrointestinal bits and bobs up. Making me feel ill, and in turn, making me weak. I’m only on one a day, and have to ease my way up to four. I figure I’m looking at 8 – 10 weeks of pain and unrest. You never know though, the pain may decrease, that’s what I’m really hoping for, and I’ve been told it’s a possibility.

So for the time being, where my life is concerned, it’s back to the drawing board.

The first person I told I was diabetic was Gemma, who I mentioned I the last entry. Kind of crossed each others paths on the way to where we were going. She’s always turning up where I need her. Bless.

I told my immediate manager that I was considering leaving as I wasn’t completely enjoying working where I was. He actually asked the question “what can we offer you to make you stay?” to which I didn’t have anything planned to answer, so I stumbled a bit but said its not the actual people I work with, it’s the job itself.

My manager came back to me later and said that he spoke to his manager about this, and that he would look out for me to see if there was anything else in the firm that was available and would suit me. It took me by surprise, really, as I doubt the last place I worked would do that for me.

The radio show I did following all this was a good release for me. It was a lot of fun, and really took my mind off a lot of things. I didn’t have Ruthie with me that time, I took an old friend of mine EKP and we had a laugh. It wasn’t exactly the most professional show I’ve ever done, but it sure was fun. I’m looking forward to getting back into it next week. I mean REALLY looking forward to it. Its still a week off and I’ve already planned the show. I’m not going to say exactly what I’m planning, but fans of hit computer game “Guitar Hero” will love it!

This week saw a really good reception, the forums got used, even if it was pictures of cats, and got a few requests and messages. All in all its been a really hard February so far, but things are starting to turn around for me, at long last.

We’ll just have to see what this next week brings me…