Monday, October 13th 2008 - 18:23

Hey you

Happy Birthday and all that jazz..........Hope you got loads of cool shit!!

I have just ready your latest entry into Sheriffs Journey (I have subscribed so get updates on my iGoogle whenever a new one pops up) Can I just ask why you write it?

Please dont misunderstand me or read into my intentions more than you should....I ask because is it a diary for you to write your thoughts and feeling or is it a means to let people know whats happening in your life? I ask because I was a little upset by your thoughts on the Derby gang not coming to your birthday. Please remember that it is not a reflection on you nor do they dislike you. Over the past year or so I have noticed a distinct change in my circle of friends at university and I have matured and grown away from those I had in the first year. Personally speaking I am still on friends with some of them because my activities coincides with theirs. These days I only speak really to Gooders, Ruthie and Zoe. Even then I only really talk to Zoe because I work with her now.

Remember that there are a certain few people who really do care and I would definately consider myself as one of them, even though I havent been as attentive to you as maybe I should have been. I have plenty of excuses but none of which I will bore you with because this email is about you and not me. I really would have shared this weekend with you had Bens mum not spent £200 on an expensive hotel and restaurant for Bens birthday present. I do feel guilty about not seeing you for ages and even not phoning you but please remind yourself that its not because I dont care. I really do and I love you dearly, after all where would the Sheriff and Debs Show be without the Sheriff!!!!!!!

I think its fantastic that you have some great new (and old) friends in Stoke/Congleton/Biddulph and I hope that they stick by you in the absence of either myself or Ruthie.

3 - "It seems like I'm still not allowed to be happy." As a friend, do you want my opinion on this? I think you stop yourself from being happy and you look for the negative in yourself and the positive in everybody else. Sometimes I really want to violently shake you and tell you to stop it!!!! Stop being so hard on yourself and let go!! Release whatever it is that is limiting your view on success and happiness. I know its a very old cliche but its true that things happen when you least expect them and I think if you put too much pressure on yourself then you will ultimately be disappointed. Sometimes its just great to let things run their course for a short while whilst planning your next move......If you want a career in radio then you need to keep working at it and keep badgering those stations and getting work experience (even voluntary) I know you have done some of this in the past but since working for Britannia your enthusiasm has wained..............................................bring it back to the forefront. Please do it for your own sanity.

Beware of the dark man. There is absolutely nothing wrong with being a dark man...............it can add a little mystery and even be attractive...........

I only say this shit coz I care and cant wait for a more positive journal entry!!!! After all there is only one Sheriff John Green

Take care big fella and I love you dearly

Debbie